As much as I like to think that I’m not that self-conscious, I have been finding that when it comes to my work and putting myself ‘out there’, I think about things that I shouldn’t even take into consideration. Bearing your soul to the world takes courage. And for me, this is not because anyone is stopping me, it’s because of the beliefs I have come up with myself, based on fear. Though I get a sense of liberation out of powering through my fear, there are some areas in my life where I just need to give myself that extra pep talk and push. Writing my thoughts and feelings down for everyone to see creates such a sense of exposure, nakedness and vulnerability. Many of us tend to put on this facade, not exposing who we truly are out of fear of being judged or not being accepted. Who are we seeking acceptance from, though? And what weight does judgement from a fellow human hold? None. Most of the time, we think people are judging us when, in fact, they couldn’t care less.
It’s okay to be vulnerable. It’s okay to be open.
When it comes to my blog and other ventures, I find myself wanting to hold back sometimes. I find it easier to open up in some areas more than others, but I’m so passionate about the fact that the world needs more authenticity, softness and truth that I’m determined to be just that. Authentic. Soft. True.
A lot of us can master the art of not caring what anybody thinks… on the surface. However, I’m finding that for me, this statement comes with layers and layers of undoing and releasing. I’m willing to put in the work. It is an act of self realisation, self love and self care. It is only right that I honour myself.